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Why, Fact or Fiction?
Being in the ER would turn out to be more of an adventure than I had anticipated. However, the Lord was kind in preparing me for the adventure He would take me on. Before I found myself looking at the brink of the unknown, He had first taught me the power of my emotions. It turns out emotions are a powerful force. They can either dig in like a two-year-old unwilling to move from the candy aisle, or they can propel that mountain climber to leap the last unpassable chasm to fin
Hillary Howse
Jan 98 min read
The Dark Side of the Moon
My first years in the Emergency Department flew by, and I suddenly found myself considered an actual ER nurse, no longer a newbie. I had performed CPR numerous times now and could easily participate in treating a myriad of life-saving interventions. I could be trusted to act without being told. I no longer thought before shoving my hand over bleeding wounds or jumped at the sight of bugs creeping out of bandages. I had lost a number of patients, old and young. I was seasoned,
Hillary Howse
Dec 22, 20259 min read


Mountain climbs, Sunshines and Sweet Victories
So I had learned to stand in the face of perceived danger, and now I had learned to walk fearlessly in the face of real danger. Where did that leave me? It left me in a place where I could now enjoy the precious wins of the ER. Finally mentally present, I started to actually meet my patients and hear their stories. I had the opportunity to see new worlds. It was like when you learn to hold your breath underwater. You finally see the fish that had been missed in your fixation
Hillary Howse
Nov 10, 20255 min read
Not Rollercoasters, But Hurricanes
But what if it's not a rollercoaster? The dangers are not just perceived: there is no harness; there is no car; in fact, there is no track at all. What if it is a hurricane? Whenever my line of work is brought up in conversation, there is an inevitable intrigue that follows. "Emergency? What's that like?" or "What's the worst thing you've ever seen?" I understand this sentiment far too well. It was exactly this concept of heroism in the face of danger or unique and inconceiv
Hillary Howse
May 29, 20258 min read
Emergency, Urgency and Not
When I first started working in the Emergency Department, I never thought it would change who I was as a person. I was so wrong. I was a 22-year-old kid, prone to indecisiveness and overthinking. I'm sure these are two of the worst traits an ER nurse could ever have and I'm still curious why anyone gave me that job in the first place! But I am so incredibly grateful for the manager who gave me that opportunity, choosing to invest in my development and not just write me off. I
Hillary Howse
May 13, 20258 min read
Embracing the Journey
I have found life often means functioning in the space of "unknown". Not knowing something is generally uncomfortable. It also poignantly...
Hillary Howse
Apr 4, 20257 min read
The Place I Did Not Plan
I remember a time in my mid 20's when I had come to a pretty clear decision of what I believed my life would look like. I have always...
Hillary Howse
Mar 28, 20255 min read
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